I’m learning to own my story and have the courage to speak up. Even if my voice shakes, His power is made perfect in my weakness. Even when I didn’t think I was ready to talk about something, I’m here to tell you all about it. And y’all, it’s ugly and raw, and while I knew I was going to write about it eventually, I didn’t know that was going to be this weekend. Here. We. Go. Continue reading
Six months ago my life was drastically different than it is now. Six months ago, out of a reverence for tradition and holiday celebrations, I was in the midst of doing what everyone does – I made a list of resolutions (or goals, if you prefer that term). I deeply looked at my life and I was scared as I faced the uncertainty of what was to come. All I knew then, was one thing: 2016 was an awful year, and it would take nothing short of a miracle to make me to make it through 2017.
And from that moment forward, I began the fight for change, for peace, for joy, and for love. I wish I could say that journey was quick and by February 1, 2017 I was completely healed. But friends, I’m hear to tell you, slow and steady wins the race.
Some days I wake up in an intense amount of pain. It radiates between my lower back, the base of my neck, and results in tightening around my shoulders. It’s been about 3 years since I began my journey with the pain, and yes my friends, I have consulted my doctor about the issue. As a result though, I am an expert in back exercises and stretches, heating pads, make shift ice packs, and I probably own enough Biofreeze to keep my family and yours pain-free.
However, my pain wasn’t stemming from a medical condition. It stemmed from the stress in my life and how I processed that stress. The long answer to my pain lay within meditation, manifestation, and affirmations that addressed my pain and also the issues that were stressing me out. The short answer is that my pain was a form of an anxiety attack. Continue reading
Earlier this week I had a bit of time and decided to get caught up on my fall reading list. This particular day I had been doing some housecleaning and was processing the events of an absolutely incredible weekend with friends and family. With the kids at school I took advantage of the peace and quiet at home and decided to curl up with a book by one of my favorite authors.
I had no clue what I was in for.
I was about to identify the source of some very serious ills in my life and was about to launch all out war against that source. War. That day. With fervor.
The book is Fervent: A Woman’s Battle Plan to Serious, Specific, and Strategic Prayer by Priscilla Shirer.
Let me say this. I knew better. Priscilla Shirer is the truth. The daughter of a well-known Dallas preacher, she is on a very important assignment from God to teach others about the goodness of God. She’s a wife and a mom first, but y’all, she can teach the bible.
She grew up in the Dallas area and still lives here with her family. My happiest of days have been when I’ve run into her at Starbucks or Panera or Target. There is a peace about her like no other.
But y’all, when she needs to, she will abandon that peaceful nature in order to fight the enemy. She will call him by name, tell him she knows what he’s up to, and demand in the name of Jesus that he stop.
And if he doesn’t, well, I’m sorry for him.
In this book, she teaches us (you and me) how to do the same. No matter the attack.
As I started reading her personal accounts of enemy attacks in her life, I started to feel a little queasy. Some of the exact things she has dealt with have also surfaced in my life. Some of the things I am going through now — and praying about now — but not with fervor or anger or with the understanding who I needed to launch war against.
Not only has Priscilla launched war in real life, she’s also done it on the big screen. As one of the leading actors in the movie War Room, she played a character who learned the necessity of fervent prayer. (If you haven’t seen the movie, go see it.)
In the book, Priscilla outlines the following ten ways in which the devil will launch attacks in our lives:
- Your Passion
- Your Focus
- Your Identity
- Your Family
- Your Past
- Your Fears
- Your Purity
- Your Pressures
- Your Hurts
- Your Relationships
By number 4, I was raging with anger because this one affected my kids the most. By number 6, I was in tears, and by number 10, I called him out and committed to fervent prayer in my own life.
And don’t worry, she gives us the tools and prayers and scriptures that we all need to call out the enemy.
This book taught me that in all of the drama going on in my life, in all of the confusion, and in all of the despair, I had been fighting the wrong people. I needed to be fighting the enemy, not the people. And I needed to fight him with consistent prayer.
So I changed my perspective. I am now praying daily for:
- My career.
- My kids’ relationships with each other.
- My kids’ in their personal struggles with independence.
- My parenting relationship with my ex-husband.
- The physical health of members of my family.
- The elimination of the hardness on the walls of my heart.
- Forgiving myself for my past sins.
- My ability to thrive in a romantic relationship.
- Consistent and sustainable financial income.
- My kids’ future as productive members of society.
And every day, I address these with specific scriptures and regular conversations with God. Even if I’m tired. Even if I’m not feeling it that day. And even if the very people I’m praying for have gotten on my last nerve.
Because this war, my friends, is not with people, it’s with the devil.
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Disclosure: I am a Lifeway/B&H blogger and received a free copy of the book in exchange for my honest review. All opinions are my own.
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