A Much-Needed Break From a Cruel World

CRUEL world

Welcome to the end of July! Our month was challenging to say the least, but we’ve learned a lot, we’re healing, and believe it or not, we are forgiving those who we need to forgive. Parts of this post have been sponsored and include affiliate links, but rest assured, the story and the opinions are all my own. (I wouldn’t wish some of this stuff on my worst enemy.)

It’s the end of July. I have had no less than three panic attacks this week alone because August is right around the corner. With August comes a lot of stuff. No, let’s change that. August doesn’t really come with a lot of stuff. IT IS PURE MADNESS for our family. There’s no way to sugarcoat it, there’s no way to be nice about, it just is what it is. This year though, we find ourselves entering the month of August after having a really rough July.

Between the acts of violence that occurred throughout our country, our city, and our college, we then had some really rough and emotional moments to tackle as a family. We’ve been moving through the stages of grief and processing the feelings of death, abandonment, unfairness, and uncertainty…daily. 

STAGES OF GRIEF

Is it me, or has 2016 been a real doozy for a lot of people? With that being said, I don’t have the energy to do August. The problem is, though, the month of August does not care about whether or not I’m ready because it will be here Monday. I found this image I used when I wrote about my aunt’s shocking death in April. I found myself re-reading that post again in July.

Unfortunately, as much as I want to, I can’t go hide under my covers to cry until December 31 and hope that 2017 is much better. There are school supplies, new clothes, a family weekend in Mississippi, fish camp for freshman orientation, meet the teacher, and summer homework for AP English that needs to be completed. And these are the things I’m thinking about off the top of my head.

As I pause to hyperventilate, I want to tell you that I am going to get through this. My family is going to get through this. If you are feeling overwhelmed about the upcoming school year – or life in general – you are also going to get through this. Here’s what you need to do now.

Pray like your life depends on it. We should actually be doing this anyway because our lives do depend on it. We are fighting a battle with the enemy like no other. Have you seen the movie War Room? Have you read the book Fervent? And more importantly, are you teaching your children to pray and be honest about the war they are fighting for themselves, their families, and their friends? Early on this summer, we participated in two activities that I am convinced shaped our responses to the drama of the world. 1. We read the book The Prince Warriors by Priscilla Shirer. Shirer is no stranger in our home. Her books adorn my shelves, my Kindle account, and this blog. This past spring, she released a book for middle-schoolers that clearly identifies a child’s role in fighting an unknown enemy as a warrior. When I announced we’d be reading this book as a family, I heard the usual groans and moans, but reading the fictional account of the 12-year-olds who fought actually helped prepare my teens for the battles of their own.

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The second activity we did was watch a movie entitled The Reconciler. When we watched it in June, we had no idea that its message would prove to be vital to our family. Even though you are hurt, even though someone else has wronged you, reconciliation is important for your peace of mind and your personal relationship with God. During this month, the kids and I lost two people who were very close to our family. Those losses were not due  to death, but to distrust, abandonment, and a lack of care and concern for our needs. For us, both relationships are gone. However, the reconciliation here will occur in our relationships with God and no one else. We are not forgetting the wrongs that have occurred, but we are forgiving those who we need to forgive and choosing to reconcile for the sake of our healing. Even if other circumstances dictate we cannot be active participants in each others lives again.

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This movie, from Justice Films, is available for rent or to own on Amazon Instant Video. Do your family a favor and watch it today!

 

Get some fresh air. This summer we started hiking. We are not your typical athletic, outdoorsy family at all. When we were sad though, a few walks on local trails helped us feel better. It was hot, we were tired, we drank a lot of water to stay hydrated, but we always felt better afterwards.

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This trail is located in Arlington, TX near Cowboys Stadium. We found it by accident and have loved visiting it this summer. Pokemon Go players, I’ve heard that a lot of Pokemon hang out here too!

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Even though we tried to wait until the temperatures got cooler, it was still about 97 degrees when we hiked.

Take care of your physical health. It’s no secret that I live with thyroid disease. With that comes several routine practices that I MUST do. My kids live with asthma, eczema, epilepsy, and vitamin d deficiency. If we don’t pay attention to our physical bodies – which includes managing the stress in our lives – our immune systems will suffer. This means we can’t forget to take our vitamins, eat healthy, and get enough rest at night. As a matter of fact, I started the summer talking about my sleep project. You can read more about that here.

When things got crappy, I couldn't sleep. Thanks to ZzzQuil, I was able to.

When things got crappy, I couldn’t sleep. Thanks to ZzzQuil and a great music playlist, I was able to.

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I will be taking thyroid medicine daily for the rest of my life. I’ve found in this journey that taking a multivitamin that specifically provides thyroid support helps me even more. I’ve tried several supplements over the years, and this one is definitely my favorite.

Enjoy the blessings. For about 10 days in the month of July, I didn’t have to drive a car that I owned. As a matter of fact, I drove a brand new 2016 Mazda CX-5. That meant that the kids and I were able to cruise around town in a shiny, red car that got great gas mileage, handled the road well, and took my mind off the sadness. For those 10 days, I didn’t worry about getting my oil changed, the tread of my tires, or even the gas mileage. As our family mourned for families who lost their sons to the hands of those entrusted with their safety, and as we grieved with other police families who lost their loved ones to senseless acts of violence, I didn’t have one worry during the motorcades and travels to memorial services and funerals. I #DriveMazda already, so I knew this car would fit into my family’s lifestyle, but with the latest safety, eco-friendly, and road assistance technology, it was a dream to drive.

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Here are some fast facts about the 2016 Mazda CX-5: MSRP from $21,795; MPG: Up to 26 city / 35 highway; Dimensions: 179″ L x 72″ W x 66″ H; Curb weight: 3,212 to 3,589 lbs; Horsepower: 155 to 184 hp. Find out more information about the Mazda Corporation and dealers near you from Mazda’s website.

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Did you know that @MazdaUSA also encourages their employees to give back by participating in community service activities in the communities they serve? Check out some of their initiatives here.

Force yourself to have adult time. I knew better than to disappear from life completely when the month got rough. I stayed in touch with close friends and family to let them know that something wasn’t right for us. When I could talk about it, I did. For the most part though, those conversations were electronic — via text messages, FB messenger, and email. When I’d get invitations for lunch or dinner or to meet up, I truly thought I shouldn’t go. I didn’t want to be a Debbie Downer, and truthfully, I didn’t have the energy to cry more. One friend though, sent me a text message one morning to ask me about meeting for lunch. Just as I almost said, no, I felt God say, “Go.” That lunch not only helped me process what was happening in my life, it taught me that life does go on – even if you’re sad – and we ended the afternoon synchronizing our calendars for the next month.

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Cheryl is one of my blogging buddies and in real life friends. It was hard to pull myself together to meet her and another friend for lunch, but I did it, and I’m so grateful that I did.

Eliminate the noise and disconnect. Social media is noisy. As someone who fluently speaks the languages of likes, shares, and follows, I’m typically hearing that noise 16 hours a day. When you’re world is crashing around you, the noise has to decrease. If not, it will cost your sanity, your ability to recover, and you will find yourself wrought with even more anxiety than you had to begin with. Take some time off from the noise and disconnect. The world will continue without you.

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One night I had a hankering for Chicago-style pizza and the kids were rather offended that I wanted to take photos of everything in the restaurant. As if they aren’t on their phones all.the.time???? We compromised and put our phones in the middle of the table during dinner but CJ suffered withdrawal symptoms before anyone and created his own Snapchat and Twitter feeds on the restaurant napkins.

 Do something different. One of my summer bucket-list items was to explore the Dallas/Ft. Worth metroplex as tourists. July was going to be an amazing time for us as I was launching a Dallas Staycation feature on this blog. In June, a popular website name the DFW area as one of the worst places to have a staycation and I was offended and determined to prove them wrong. We started the month with one goal: to show you everything awesome that a Dallas staycation can offer. Our plan was to travel Dallas, Ft. Worth, and everything in between. When tragedy struck, the only staycation I wanted to do was to stay in my bed. But we didn’t. We altered our plans slightly and instead visited places we haven’t visited much before. For us, that meant spending a lot of time in Arlington, Irving, and exploring hidden gems for the best pizza, pancakes, and snow cones.

This chai tea latte at the Original Pancake House changed my life!

This chai tea latte at the Original Pancake House changed my life!

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An important thing to note about snow cones…most places accept cash only. The only one we found in the area that will accept cards is Bahama Buck’s – and they have sugar free options!

 

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As the mom of three police kids, this sign at the Original Pancake House in Irving, TX was refreshing to see right after the shootings in Dallas. I believe in supporting the #BlackLivesMatter and the #BacktheBlue movements and we saw this right after we participated in a police processional for one of the fallen officers.

Acknowledge the pain and the grief. It’s okay to cry, it’s okay to be disappointed, and it’s okay to feel like the world is crashing around you. Let yourself have those emotions, because if you don’t they will hit you at the most unfortunate times. Like maybe in the checkout line at your local grocery store.

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Life didn’t stop because we were grieving. And the week I drove the Mazda CX-5 I was quite pleased with the cargo room from my grocery visit. Everything fit with room for more even after my bottled up emotions turned into tears streaming down my face in the aisles of my local Kroger store. Hint: deal with your emotions before they deal with you!

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Cargo space was great no matter what kind of cargo I was driving around!

Control what happens once the chaos enters your house. I have written about several spiritual mentors that I’ve had in my life before. I have never personally met several of them before, but for a few, I have the pleasure of seeing them in person, even at my local coffee shop or church events in Dallas. Dr. Lois Evans is one of those people. I watched a webcast with her recently and she mentioned how as a wife and a mother, Titus 2:5 guided her life. When she talked about the important of that scripture, she also mentioned how part of working in your home means that you need control the chaos that enters your house. I may not be able to prevent certain things from happening, but I can control how it affects us, and how we process it. When the chaos comes, I will control it, it will not control us.

Seek the lesson you are supposed to learn from this. A few of my friends have asked if I’ve thought about why or how some of the devastation hit us. My answer to that is no. I have thought about why certain events happened so closely to each other, and even though they appear unrelated, I know that they all happened for a reason. I’m open to learning the lesson I’m supposed to learn; and especially understand the connection between the traumatic events.

Plan for the future. I finally accepted that August was coming in the middle of the night on July 26. The next day we bought planners, stickers, and everything we needed to get our minds right for the upcoming year. We checked the school supply lists, we compared the new school start and end times, and we reviewed the school calendar for the new year. We also talked about attending high school and college football games, making homecoming mums, and travel plans.

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This is Michael’s first year selling planners. Trust me when I tell you this, they will change your life and there are always, always Michael’s coupons on the internet for purchases such as these.

Whatever you do, please know that life gets rough for everyone and you definitely do not have to weather these storms alone. The magic in the healing is to get up, get out, and embrace the changes. And if all else fails….pancakes work quite well!

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Dallas peeps: I posted this coupon on social media throughout the month but I wanted to make sure you saw it here as well. Use this coupon for $10 off at the newest Original House of Pancakes location in Irving.

 

 

 

30 thoughts on “A Much-Needed Break From a Cruel World

  1. Rose Sahetapy says:

    I believe that trustworthy friends and family are the best place to share our struggles. Carry our struggles alone is not only tough, but could lead us to something that might worst, like anxiety or even depression. I hope you and your family are getting better to cope the hard period of your life. God is in control.

  2. GiGi Eats Celebrities says:

    I tend to live in my own little reality – Obviously I pay attention to news and what not, but I push the sad unfortunate events out of my mind and continue to live life with a smile, because truthfully, over all, I adore life – even when I am having a bad day!

  3. Julie says:

    Absolutely love these suggestions! When I am feeling overwhelmed I combine a few of them and head down to the beach (about a mile from my house) and take a long walk on the beach and pray while I walk. By the time I’m finished I’m feeling much better!

  4. knotj5144 says:

    It’s so easy to get lost in the day to day activities of life. Its no wonder we all feel stressed with 100 things we have to get done by the end of the week. I’ve found that taking time to heal like planning a getaway to the beach for a day to be helpful. It’s the little things like that that can really give us clarity to keep pursuing and completing goals. I’m looking into The Reconciler now and can’t wait to get some down time to watch it!

  5. tp keane says:

    Life is never dull, never easy, and never what you want it to be. I sympathies with your struggle with panic attacks. Disassociating yourself from things you cannot control and breathing deeply always helped me.

  6. Terri Steffes says:

    I am exhausted reading all you did! What a great bunch of activities. You made memories with your kids, ones that will last forever. I laughed when I read about drawing snapchat on the napkin!

  7. Carolyn says:

    OMG, you poor thing. You and your family have had to deal with so much pain. I am praying for you. That Mazda looked super nice though…a little shiny spot in your life there. 🙂

  8. Ana De Jesus says:

    Oh hun sorry to hear about the pain you and your family have been through. It is so true that 2016 has been awful, celebrity deaths, shootings personal pain. Here’s hoping August goes ok for you x

  9. Heather says:

    It sounds like you really have your priorities in order, and the ability to work through grief in the ways you described sounds definitely therapeutic. I hope that you are off to a wonderful August!

  10. Amanda Love says:

    I know it’s difficult right now and this might sound like a cliche, but it’s definitely going to get better. Just stay close to each other and keep supporting one another like any family would do and you will be fine. I like that despite what you’re going through, you remain positive and full of hope, that’s what you need to be strong.

  11. GlamKaren says:

    Fresh air. How simple, yet how powerful that can be. Just to breathe it all in… then count your blessings…can be that pause/reboot to keep positive!
    Karen | GlamKaren.com

  12. Yvonne Sowell says:

    I tend to disconnect myself if I sense an impeding moment of grief coming soon. I will hold it in and take care of everyone till they get better. But by the time that happens, I’d crash, hard. It’s not healthy in any way, but that is the only way I know how to cope. I disconnected before my dog died, so I wouldn’t grieve. I disconnected from my grandparents. I fear about losing my parents too.

  13. Robin Rue says:

    This year has definitely already been a whirlwind for me too. I can not even turn on the news anymore because I hate what I am listening to. August is also a crazy month here in my house too! Take that break 🙂

  14. modaddicted says:

    These are all great suggestions! When I need a break, I usually change my daily routine. Since I live in Miami, I tend to go for a stroll down the beach alone just to meditate and take a break from the news and social media.

  15. toughcookiemommy says:

    I can completely relate, August brings a lot of hustle and bustle in our home too. It’s a busy time with getting the kids ready for back to school.

  16. rosepetalsinthesea says:

    These are wonderful suggestions! I believe taking a break from social media and news from time to time is healthy for one’s mindset, because there are too many bad things going on in the world. – HilLesha

  17. Arin says:

    I’m learning how important it is to just get some fresh air! If I’m having a bad day at work, I always go outside and just breathe in some fresh air (not that re-circulated a/c!) — Also, walking barefoot in the grass is supposed to be a big help, too! Keep your head up! http://www.heartofchic.com

  18. Denea says:

    Taking care of ourselves is so important but as a mom sometimes put on the list way down at the bottom! I think you have hit on some great points!

  19. Shawn Justice says:

    Thanks for reviewing my movie Toni and so glad that it ministered to you and your family. That the best reward of all as a filmmaker; to not only entertain, but touch people’s lives in deep ways.

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